So right now I am kicking myself for quitting Dance lessons when I was in the eighth grade, because it is obviously something I really really stink at. I'm beginning to think I should of been in the choir doing to easy two step thing rather than being a sweetone and looking like a fool.

Sorry just venting because I am really stressed right now. I'm not going to quit, in fact I will work really really hard and hopefully by opening night I will have the dance for the most part down. I hope anyway. Please pray for my patience, and that I don't overwork myself in this. Thanks.

Oh and if anybody has a copy of The color of Water By James McBride could I possible borrow it, it seems all libraries are having a shortage.

Monday I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled out and I really don't want to. But because it must be done I guess I don't have a choice. I won't be able to do to much for about a week, but since I know Aj will be there when he can and I have my parents I know I will be fine. So if you could be praying about that as well it would be just amazing.

I thought I would just put this out in the open because I really feel that it is wrong.

Dan,

   I don't know what you need to tell River, and frankly I think it is beyond childish to be going behind my back trying to talk to someone you have never met in person about something that you refuse to tell me. Go ahead Dan, tell her what ever but I just want you to know that it really hurts that you would leave a comment to one of my friends asking them to talk to you but not tell me and to delete the comment you left them because of me. I will always be around if you ever need me dan, but please stop being so suspicious. If something is going on tell me about it.

Sorry guys. I wish I didn't have to post that but it was nessasary.

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So Florida was amazing, I really enjoyed spending time with Aj and getting to know his family alot better. I am so very blessed to have found someone who cares about me as much as he does and who has a family who have been nothing less of kind, warm, and accepting. Thankyou Aj, for everything.

Camp was once again just a blast although I am now depressed at the fact that I don't get to return but it was an amazing four years. I really enjoyed the music this year, it was probably some of the best selections that they have made. Emily~ It was really nice to talk to you I hope you keep in touch, Im always praying.

Besides all that right now I am in State Fair at Corn Stock theatre and I must say it is going to be amazing as well. You all should come see it!! August 25th - September 2nd.

Well thats all I have for now, I really need to get back to my huge TO DO list, its gonna take a while.

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Well as it turns out I didn't go to Florida last saturday with Aj's family because my grandma Davis died on Thursday. Today was her Visitation, and to be honest I am so sick of Visitations and Funerals. I know that sounds bad, but im sorry. Im tired of losing people, im tired of saying good bye for the last time. I keep thinking of Michael, Troy, Rooney, Bennet, Jaden, and Drew and I hate looking back on the memorys of there funerals and the times of there deaths. What really bothers me is that my Great Grandmother Nyman and Great Grandmother Rebholz both can go at any moment. Both of them have put us through so many scares, and I don't want to lose either of them. I don't want to lose anyone else.

Sorry for the depressing post. Tomorrow after the funeral I am going to fly out to Orlando to spend a couple of days on vacations with Aj and his family. That sounds so wonderful right now. Its not an escape, or a way to hide from whats going on its me just needing some fun and I just want to spend time with Aj and his family. I miss Aj like crazy. I can't wait to see you Aj.

Thats all I got right now, I will hopefully update when I get back from my trip.

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Count down till I am officially a Senior and Done with school: 1 DAY!!!

Thats right, and I going to have an amazing summer. Saturday morning I leave to go to Florida with Aj and his family which is going to be so incredibly amazing. I am still thinking that something is going to happen because it seems to good to be true.

As for other things that seem to good to be true are the fact that I got a fully scholarship to camp and now I get to go and have an amazing time with my theatre buddys.

I'm not sure what I am going to do show wise this summer, I am auditioning for Crossing Delancy and State Fair both at corn stock. I auditioned for Grease and sadly didn't make it but thats fine because I know I'll find something to do this summer.

Well thats all for updating.

Thankyou Aj, for all your love and support, I don't know what I would do with out you!